GB ROD
9.12AM
I didn't post yesterday because I was super tired!
GB ROD was yesterday. ROD is a service when the graduating classes leave their CCAs to concentrate on their studies.
So anyway, my GB seniors were leaving and we gave them a great treat. And in conclusion to the performances, the Sec4s performed for us and said their sharing on their feelings for all the times they were in GB. It was so sad and touching seeing them go. Qiu Ting and I cries our hearts out whenever any of the seniors we were very close to shared. I cried the hardest when Squad 7 (my squad) seniors said their sharing. They were my closest Sec4s I had. Especially Alecia. The four of them cried when they were sharing and I was so sad to see them go and I cried as hard as they did.
I sat next to Qiu Ting because Qiu Ting fell and hurt her back so she was sitting on a chair, so I sat next to her taking care of her and when the both of us were crying our Captain, Miss Wendy Wong, asked me why I was crying. I was supposed to prevent Qiu Ting from crying because she hurt herself. Instead I'm making her cry even more by crying myself.
After the whole ROD finished, it was time to announce the new squad leaders and assistant leaders.
These are the Sec2s who became squad leader or assistant leaders.
Qiu Ting, assistant leader.
Sheila, assistant leader.
Jun Tian, squad leader.
Dora squad leader.
Lycia assistant leader.
Yup. I didn't get selected to be a squad leader or an assistant leader.
I was very disappointed with myself of course because I wasn't good enough to become one. It was quite sad for me and the disappointment was overwhelming.
After the announcing of the squad leaders and assistant leaders. I went up to all of them and hugged them also congratulating them. I was happy for them who became leaders/assistant leaders but the disappointment in myself was still there.
After all that, my squad leader, Deborah, came up to me knowing and seeing me very disappointed in myself. She told me that originally, she nominated me to become a squad leader too but the captain said that I wasn't ready yet so they were going to give me another year to become more ready.
But truthfully, by experience, whenever a teacher or anybody who has a higher authority than you says that you're not ready, you'll never be ready. And they'll never choose you in the end. I've got that from experience and the many times I've been rejected to do anything.
So being rejected before and then being rejected again for many many times is really hurtful. This shows that they don't have faith in you. And that you can do anything. They don't believe in you. So it's very disappointing for me. Very badly.
When I got home, I committed all my feelings of envy and disappointment to the Lord and I trust Him that He would give me an even bigger plan. He has a bigger plan for me.
After ROD ended, the Drill Competition was next. So we all rushed to the toilet to get changed into our uniforms. At 1.45PM we got into position and got ready for it. We were then ushered into the hall so that we wont be able to see the other contingents doing the drill competition.
When it came to my contingent's turn, I wasn't nervous at all. That's a first! I wasn't worried.
We did the whole format and in the end we finished and it was oki.
After all the contingents did the competition, the results were out and the winner for Sec3s was Zarraphina's contingent. Sec2s was Yvonne's contingent (not mine) and Sec1s was Vikki's contingent.
Since it was over, we changed out of our uniforms and went home.
Once I got home, I greeted my dad and just feel asleep on the floor. I didn't eat dinner or anything else. Just immediately fell asleep on the floor.
I didn't post yesterday because I was super tired!
GB ROD was yesterday. ROD is a service when the graduating classes leave their CCAs to concentrate on their studies.
So anyway, my GB seniors were leaving and we gave them a great treat. And in conclusion to the performances, the Sec4s performed for us and said their sharing on their feelings for all the times they were in GB. It was so sad and touching seeing them go. Qiu Ting and I cries our hearts out whenever any of the seniors we were very close to shared. I cried the hardest when Squad 7 (my squad) seniors said their sharing. They were my closest Sec4s I had. Especially Alecia. The four of them cried when they were sharing and I was so sad to see them go and I cried as hard as they did.
I sat next to Qiu Ting because Qiu Ting fell and hurt her back so she was sitting on a chair, so I sat next to her taking care of her and when the both of us were crying our Captain, Miss Wendy Wong, asked me why I was crying. I was supposed to prevent Qiu Ting from crying because she hurt herself. Instead I'm making her cry even more by crying myself.
After the whole ROD finished, it was time to announce the new squad leaders and assistant leaders.
These are the Sec2s who became squad leader or assistant leaders.
Qiu Ting, assistant leader.
Sheila, assistant leader.
Jun Tian, squad leader.
Dora squad leader.
Lycia assistant leader.
Yup. I didn't get selected to be a squad leader or an assistant leader.
I was very disappointed with myself of course because I wasn't good enough to become one. It was quite sad for me and the disappointment was overwhelming.
After the announcing of the squad leaders and assistant leaders. I went up to all of them and hugged them also congratulating them. I was happy for them who became leaders/assistant leaders but the disappointment in myself was still there.
After all that, my squad leader, Deborah, came up to me knowing and seeing me very disappointed in myself. She told me that originally, she nominated me to become a squad leader too but the captain said that I wasn't ready yet so they were going to give me another year to become more ready.
But truthfully, by experience, whenever a teacher or anybody who has a higher authority than you says that you're not ready, you'll never be ready. And they'll never choose you in the end. I've got that from experience and the many times I've been rejected to do anything.
So being rejected before and then being rejected again for many many times is really hurtful. This shows that they don't have faith in you. And that you can do anything. They don't believe in you. So it's very disappointing for me. Very badly.
When I got home, I committed all my feelings of envy and disappointment to the Lord and I trust Him that He would give me an even bigger plan. He has a bigger plan for me.
After ROD ended, the Drill Competition was next. So we all rushed to the toilet to get changed into our uniforms. At 1.45PM we got into position and got ready for it. We were then ushered into the hall so that we wont be able to see the other contingents doing the drill competition.
When it came to my contingent's turn, I wasn't nervous at all. That's a first! I wasn't worried.
We did the whole format and in the end we finished and it was oki.
After all the contingents did the competition, the results were out and the winner for Sec3s was Zarraphina's contingent. Sec2s was Yvonne's contingent (not mine) and Sec1s was Vikki's contingent.
Since it was over, we changed out of our uniforms and went home.
Once I got home, I greeted my dad and just feel asleep on the floor. I didn't eat dinner or anything else. Just immediately fell asleep on the floor.
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